November 09, 2013

I'm not jealous.

     After leaving school and entering workplace, we have become one of the money chasers. People say money is not everything, but without money we can do nothing. We chase money, and bills chase us. We can't get out of this cycle, but we can get a life. Though I'm a small nine-to-fiver, I can't stop finding small happiness in my life. I'm happy when I have a drink with friends on Friday night, lie on the bed & listening to music on Saturday morning, have lunch with my family on Sunday, riding bicycle with my bestie even we're mostly just wandering, going to a exhibition, concert, & stage play occasionally. I have hobbies and a lifestyle, so I'm kind of satisfied with my life.

     After I get to know more about my current boss, I started to realize the above things. Essentially I'm not richer than him, but in so many other ways, I'm totally a wealthy person that he will never be able to compare. It is a small company, I know the cost, profit... almost everything, so I'm sure they're rich as hell ,seriously can retire and live a super luxury life to death. I understand their financial situation, I know how they spend their money as well. That's why I start to despise them. 
 
     First, they're cheapskates in some aspects. I think I don't have to mention the salary for employees, which boss is not for it? Since I worked here, they have gone abroad twice, and they booked the flight at very last minutes. We know it'll be less option and more expense, but they just do it over and over again. Afterward, the pickups between home and airport. They went to train station by a scooter! I can't imagine how they arrived by that small scooter with 2 people and luggage. I understand they don't have friends or relatives who can help, but taking cab wouldn't cost that much, right? For me, being comfortable is more important than the cost when going abroad. I don't like rushing and making myself so tired while travelling.

     Second, they just waste so much money. My boss just joined the smartphone group few month ago(Can't believe a boss hadn't have a smartphone as soon as he could), he bought that which was the newest, like the best at that time and of course expensive. (Need to be on a wait-list to get), but through these months, his phone is acting stupid. He didn't, doesn't and maybe won't look into it and use it well. His mobile network is all-you-can-eat data plan, but I'm guessing he doesn't use more than 500 MB a month. I'm also guessing he hasn't downloaded any app since last time I helped him download some basic ones. He still prints maps when he's out. Yeah, I say there's still people printing maps, especially people with a smartphone. (His GPS is freaking crying) Every time he's out, he likes to call back to company ask something he could've find on the Internet. He chooses the way which charges, maybe it's not big money to him, but this money can be saved.

     Third, they don't have tastes. They're in a prominent position to me, but I don't think that way anymore. I first found their favorite restaurant is too ghastly to look at. I was shocked, they don't have taste at all! No offense to the restaurant, but it shouldn't be one's favorite, it is replaceable. My boss got no taste to music, his wife got no taste to clothes. They got no taste to travel, no taste to almost everything they spend money for. It sounds like they travel to America every year, and stay for at least 1~2 months. They did this year, I was shocked that they've gone to United States Capitol, but my boss didn't know it's the name of this place... After this, I totally despise them. Such a waste of money! I don't appreciate and be jealous of people who go abroad, but don't know where the hell they're going. This is freaking shallow and pathetic. What a waste if I travel to Tokyo, but I don't know to appreciate the architecture which is designed by Tange Kenzo, a church which is hundreds-year older than you or a shrine that survived the Tokyo firebombing of World War II.
 
      Fourth, their life is fucked up. They don't have routine of doing anything. A little abstract: They're religious fanatics. I'm a person without religion, but I'm not a radical atheist. I'm open-minded to any religion, but because of them, I start to have a really bad impression to this religion. (I won't say which one it is) They're so into it that I think they're psychotic. It seems there are only religious activities in their lives. Their company and other things seem to be not important at all. No matter school or work, it doesn't mean you don't have to take it seriously because you hate it, it's a part of your life. They always say how big their company was, they keep scaling it down because they don't wanna be so busy, they want to focus on preaching. A small company like this should be much more easy to control, but my boss just keep screwing things up and wasting time. Many things he's done make no sense, he makes employees waste so much time on work we don't have to do. I wonder if he understands what cost control is or not. Sometimes, I even wonder if he can do business or not. Fortunately, I don't know where the luck comes from, they don't have any crisis and still make money.

     Last, no one has their backs. Just like I mentioned, they went to train station by themselves. There are so many things I think I'll(most people will) ask family or friends for help, they just won't. I observe my boss' life, and I discovered he doesn't have real friends. Friends from work or same religion, those just don't count. One who you couldn't share something on your mind with is not a friend. One you don't even do chitchat or hang out with. My boss is always out of office, but it's just for errands, work or religion things. On weekends, it is fully occupied by their religion. I've never heard of he'll do something "for fun".

     This article is full of hatred, I admit I hate my boss (who doesn't?), but isn't there so much I've learned? We chase money, but we have to be awake all the time. Don't forget you still got a life. Even I become the richest people in the world, I'll have to remind myself do not become so pathetic. Don't become a people who got nothing left but money.


     The painting on the top is "Jealousy"(1895) by Edvard Munch.

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